February 2012
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Outside I'm smiling,
But the truth is that I’m crying inside.
There’s times where I just cry it all out, get all the shit feelings out but it never works and that is why I tend to keep all feelings bottled up. I never wanted to open up my feelings for anyone else since he walked out of my life because I just don’t want to replace new memories with the old ones with him… I just can’t....
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I’M TIRED OF YOUR STUPID SHIT, TIRED OF THE SAME EXCUSES YOU MAKE UP. I’m just sick and fucking tired of it. YOU NEVER LET ME HAVE IT MY WAY, YOU ALWAYS HAVE IT YOUR FUCKING WAY. Not called fair relationship ISN’T IT?
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I’m tired of being ignored, you being a bitch and a snob to me when all I every try to do is be the nicest person I can possibly be to make you impressed but what the fuck do I get in return? Getting ignored and act like I’m not even there. I don’t really give a flying fuck if you want to hit me, or hate my guts, just don’t act like a bitch to me.
Next time you see me,...
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It’s been a year since you gave up on us and on what we had. It’s hard for me to live life right now because it still feels weird not having you around… It feels weird not calling you babe or baby and feeling weird that your arms aren’t around me keeping me safe. I hope I see you today, it would mean a lot to me.
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Last night I thought about you before I went to sleep and I guess last night was one of the toughest nights… All the crying, thinking about the old us and the memories. You had me at hello and I guess I could say, I lost the love of my life for good. I’m not good enough for you, am I?
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I had enough.
I try to be the nicest person just to impress you but what do I get in return? You being the biggest snob to me. I don’t care if you hate me being your brothers girlfriend but you’re the one who I’m started to hate. Whenever I saw hi, you just ignore me or just wave and not even bother to be nice to me at all. Oh yeah let’s mention about me standing outside the door for 5...
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You're still my everything.
You’re still in my heart and it hurts like hell knowing you won’t come back. I cry so many times to let all the feelings flow out but it just don’t work, I can’t work things out with you. Why did I let you go? It’s been probably about a year or so since I’ve last kissed you, having those arms that kept me safe around me, hearing your voice that kept me sane and...
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I want to let you know:
That’s I will always be there for you no matter what, for every breath I take, I will always be there for you. I just want to let you know that. If you ever have that one point in your life when you feel as if the whole entire world turned your back on you, I will be there for you, as always. We became strangers, friends, close friends, lovers to couples, strangers again and now we’re...
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I don’t know, I don’t know who I am without you.
All I know is that I should… All I know is that I’m really tired of trying to figure it out
I don’t know when I’ll ever actually move on and just live my life normally like I used to before I met you. I hate you because you made my life a living hell back then and still now but I still have these mixed feelings for you because you gave me hope, made me give a second chance...
January 2012
11 posts
What would I do to just see your face again? Argh I had that chance but I won’t now… Lol. I’ll just hold in the tears, no biggie.
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It's all about us...
I remembered when you said you’ll never leave me and I actually believed those 4 words but then it’s life, people are meant to break some promises I guess. Why can’t I let go what we had after what you treated me? Maybe it’s because I missed the old you for the first couple of months after we were official. I guess every time I try to let it go my heart just gives in and...
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27.01.12
I was excited to go to the place where boyfriend, other bffl are gonna meet up with my best friend because I thought I would get a slight glance at you if you are there tomorrow.. Guess I’m not going tomorrow, that’s cool I’ll just wait another time to get to chance to see you again even if it means seeing you for 2 minutes…
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26.01.12
Your friends make me so insecure to the point that my mind makes me think I’m ugly, fat and I should go die because I’m ‘such a waste of space.’
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Sometimes I think to myself what I did wrong.
Sometimes when I feel like shit I think about the past, the positive stuff about it and I feel happy about it. I try hard to not think about what we had, I really did try but my heart and head just gives in and I end up feeling like I regret everything. I regret letting my heart fall and miss what we had, fuck. I know that I love my boyfriend a lot but we’re just not working out and somehow...
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Sometimes I think about what we once had when it’s a quiet night and what went wrong. I thought I got over it but I guess I haven’t yet, I still bring myself back to the past and of used to be ‘us’. I miss you and what we had.
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Dear ex-boyfriend:
Oh man, where the fuck do I start? First off I would like to say that you were the official first guy that actually meant something to me at one point and to be honest, you still mean a lot to me. When I first met you, I knew you were the one for me and as corny and sweet as it sounds, I told you I would love you forever and always but I obviously that ‘forever and always’ did not...
There are so many things to begin with that I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO FUCKING WRITE ON THIS TUMBLR. FUCK, I DON’T KNOW. IF YOU WEREN’T SO GOD DAMN DEPRESSING FUCK, I WOULDN’T BE SO PISSED OFF AT YOU RIGHT NOW. FUCK, I DON’T KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN, I CAN’T EVEN FUCKING THINK RIGHT NOW.
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To think that I was actually starting to like you… Lol what an idiot am I. You just seriously lose all my respect for you simply because you said stuff about my best friend. I bet you’re thinking that you don’t want to be talked about in a bad way well guess what? Eventually people going to talk shit about you. My best friend isn’t a two-faced bitch, she only said shit...
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If I was strong enough to not believe the words that come out of your mouth me make me feel bad and not leave you, I would be enjoying life to the fullest. I want to be single and you know why? I miss being in that ‘single’ life I had. Ever since my ex broke up with me, he did me a favor without me realizing it and over a month later I was suddenly in a relationship with you. That one...
December 2011
9 posts
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You still have those two things I’ve got for you for our 1 month and you know, I felt like I was that ‘special’ ex girlfriend that you probably still cared about to not throw it away till you said you still had other stuff your ex’s got you. Yeah, just pretend that I don’t have feelings.
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I'm always going to miss you
No matter what I try to do. I try to just get rid of my feelings for you and act like I never loved you but fuck.. You’re making it worse for me and I don’t know when I’m ever going to get over you.
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What am I going to do?
What if my feelings for you won’t ever fade away? I got over you so quickly but all of the sudden my feelings for you came back.. Why? Is it because I put myself in your shoes to see how you felt? :\ I hope this feeling is just temporary because I don’t want to let myself upset again. But then you made me the most happiest girl I have ever been when I date a guy, you made me feel like...
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My heart is beating really fast.
You’re talking to me! I don’t know how to explain my feeling, can’t explain how happy I am. But I’m scared you won’t reply to me after a few minutes :(
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fuck distance
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y’all should learn from super mario brothers, no matter how far your princess is, you’d still go after her.
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Maybe if I was out of your life, you would realise...
Right now, she is your close/best friend and has a boyfriend. But you know.. Once I’m out of your life and when this is over you will know she is the one for you. I can’t stand by watching you get hurt so many times by me… I hurts me a lot. Maybe when I’m out of the picture, maybe it’s for the better.. For your sake. One day, I’ll have the guts to just spill...
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Yes, I've changed.
But who are you to judge about that? Everyone changed, good or bad. First of all, now days I don’t give a fuck about what people say about me now days because simply, they’re not worth it. Secondly, I’m fucking tired of trying to like you for my boyfriend’s sake. I actually started to like you but you just ruined that when you said shit about my best friend. You lost all of...
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Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface.
Once again, haven’t blogged on this for ages. Sighs, so much thing I’m feeling right now.
You just can’t understand what I’m going through. I don’t want to tell you anything and you should just respect that. If I don’t do anything you want me to do, you’ll be mad and just blunt me till I do so. It’s fucking bothering me. Half the things you say, I...
November 2011
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It's been a while since I've vented out.
There’s so much that has been happening lately but I managed to get through this but I did it alone. I guess I’ll be alright for now.
What sucks is that, I love you yet I still have feelings for the other person… What to do? Why did you even come into my life in the first place? Fuck. I can’t even explain my feelings right now…
October 2011
7 posts
I'm so fucking sorry.
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11. 23/10/11 - You're an asshole.
You shouldn’t be treating your girlfriend like shit, why are you hiding stuff from her? I wonder if she knows you’re doing weed and smoke, I’ll take that as a no.
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10. 21/10/11 - Only certain about one thing,
I’ll never be good enough for you. Ever.
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7. 18/10/11 - Fuck it.
I’m so sick of this relationship. If you’re not happy then leave me, it’s that simple. Don’t give me that ‘as long you’re happy’ bullshit. No wonder everyone says you’re better off with someone else because you’ll be happy. Fuck.
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6. 18/10/11 - Note to self.
Remember that you’re a strong, beautiful girl who doesn’t deserve to be treated like crap, being ignored or feeling so insecure. You don’t deserve any of that, just keep your head up high and I promise you, things will be better soon.
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4. 17/10/11
Instead of acting like you’re all that, why can’t you just be normal like everyone else for once. You were my best friend, once and now you’re gone but I’m glad we’re not best friends anymore because now you’re such a hypocrite and two-faced. Oh and you fucked up my other best friend’s high school life and just life in general, fuck you.
Now that I see...
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2. 16/10/11
Maybe a lot of people are right, you’re better off with someone else. Who would want a girlfriend who is a low-life? No one would. I already know this isn’t working out and it’s kind of heart-breaking to accept that fact that you know this relationship is going to end at some point sooner or later.
Maybe they are right, you deserve someone who is better.